Bleh....

*SIGH*

Not too happy at the moment... soooooooo much stuff been going on lately and i feel like i don't even get a break just to sit and reflect.... :(

So many 'whys' in this world, so many unanswered questions... Lord just keep me sane 'til the end of the year!!

Mum's been overseas for a long time now, was supposed to leave this avo but ARGH stupid airlines on strike so we have to wait 'til Tuesday my time to find out when she is coming home.....

And sadly my sis passed away last Wednesday night... i knew it the moment the phone rang, funny how sometimes you just know.... I'm not sure how i feel, i cry probably at least once every day... does that sound stupid?? Worse, i get frustrated when that happens, i don't want to cry anymore. I know there'l be more of it when mum finally returns. Turns out my sis wrote a letter to me only she never got the chance to finish it... they've had the unfinished symphony, now it's the unfinished letter....

Perhaps what saddens me more is that i have no idea where she's gone to. Did she choose a life with Christ? Or has she gone some place that lives in darkness and fear... like i said so many unanswered questions...

Yesterday was the last official training day for Cowra. I'l admit i was disappointed with myself. Forgot to bring my sections timetables and notes we've collected over the past few months, so didn't know what people were doing on what day etc. Also didn't get to finish my lions den talk (even though i did it yesterday). I've been slack with emailing and keeping in touch with the majority of the section.... This does NOT sound like a good leader!! Shame on me!! I must work extra hard from now on... Next Saturday we've planned a craft day to get stuff done, please, please, please let things go smoothly and lets get some work done!

But yay we got a new member for our section! :D Queenie!! Thanks man, it'l be good chilling out with you during that week...

And that person and i?!..... Time is truly testing my patience, i shouldn't dwell on it i know. But man, next year seems like a lifetime away, well not really but... ARGHHHHHH!!! Hit me Queens when i start rambling...

Work has been good to me though. Getting heaps, man i work til the end of the term now! WAHHH that means no proper Xmas shopping! Just a hurried sort of approach! Why ever do they make schools go til the 21st of Dec??? Don't they know its a waste of time?? All we do is party, watch videos, play games and do yet MORE Christmas craft!! And thats only for those who DO actually come to school for the last few days... *sigh*

Hmmm think i got a few things off my chest... done my ramblings.... keep an eye out for more ... hopefully when i'm in a better mood......